As I stood upon the ledge, I was filled with a sense of foreboding.
I knew that regardless of what happened next, I would never be the same.
Before me loomed a dark nothingness so deep that if I fell
I had no idea how long it would take to hit the bottom.

Although a brisk and invigorating chill emanated from the expanse
Washing over me and bringing relief from the warm comfort I’d just left
It was vertigo that caused me to shiver.
I knew I should turn away.
I knew I should return to the safety behind me.
But I had been to this place so many times, I couldn’t help wanting to stay.
Something had always drawn me to the edge
And it was always with regret that I had turned back.

All the familiar trails and well-worn paths led to this place
Bringing me again and again to this point of decision.
It seemed that every road I traveled left me feeling unfulfilled
As if something was missing.
I found myself always longing to know what was beyond the ledge.
I found myself always wanting to just step off and plunge into darkness.
But that was insanity!

It was not the danger that drew me, but something elseâ€"
Something indescribable.
It was always there, just under the surface, calling me seductively.
Gently, quietly, like the soft breath of a lover
It offered something I thought I dared not desire.

But today, that call was different.
It carried an urgency I had never sensed before.
And for this reason, I knew that after today
I would not return here again.
This chapter would close, and the opportunity would present itself no more.

With this realization, relief flooded my mind
For I did not know how much longer I could resist the temptation to jump.

Suddenly, as I considered these things
The ground beneath me began to shift.
It started breaking apart like the dried mud of a riverbank
And panic struck me as my feet began to slide out from under me.
I instinctively reached out for something to grasp
But there was only air.
I knew now why I would never return here again.

As I felt myself beginning to lose balance, I heard a voice.
Though it was barely a whisper, it caught my attention.
And for a moment, I forgot I was about to die.
It said, “My child, do not resist.
You have prayed for intimacy with Me, and I have heard you.
Oh how I long to fulfill that desire within you
But you are unwilling!

All the trails behind you lead to this place because of that prayer.
But you must take the next step
Instead of returning to your comfort zone.
You are losing your balance because I am tearing out
All the foundations you have built for yourselfâ€"
Foundations that will never satisfy or sustain you.
You cannot stand on any of these and be useful to me.
You must step out in faith and trust that I Am!
I will not lose you or let you go!

The danger you sense is realâ€"
The front lines are not a safe place to be
But that is where I wish to take you, because you can be victorious there.
Many others have been to this ledge and have chosen to go forward
And this makes all the demons of hell tremble in fear!
But for you, My child, they only laugh
Because they have seen you turn away so often!
Each time, their hold over you tightens and your bondage increases!
What you have called caution, I call indifference
And it has cost you dearly.
Do you think it only coincidence that you are on fire when you come here
But cold and complacent when you leave?
This need not be, My beloved!
Step out…let go!
I Am here.
I Am waiting.
I Am all you need!
I Am all you want!
I love you!

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